*i used to blog a lot a few years ago. a group of my high school friends all created LJs so we could keep with each other as we all went our separate ways. it worked and i remained close to all of them, but then things got a little out of control. so i decided to never blog again. but maybe if i DON'T broadcast my online journal all over the place, i can keep it more private. a place for me.
*my sister and her boyfriend are in town this week for a wedding. i'm trying SO HARD to call her, Devora, but i just can't do it. i don't know why i can't call her that to her face. the few times when i did say it, it just felt weird to me; foreign. it's her NAME for cripes sake. but i'm having the hardest time saying it to her. i totally respect her conversion and what not, and i'm trying to respect her wishes, but i'm sorry... she'll always be Kris to me. maybe it's because i don't see or talk to her much, i don't know. hopefully it'll get to the point where i don't feel awkward saying her name or even stutter when i do.
*i deleted old text messages and phone numbers today. it felt good to get some people out of my life. i hate how i hold onto things, even though they remind me of bad times in my life. hopefully this will help me put things behind me.
*i'm also trying NOT to be bitter, but i'm still having a hard time with it.
*sigh.
